Meaning of Life or Life of Meaning

My musings about life and what it all means for this mom, worker, wife, woman, human. What it's like to live with a tantrum-throwing toddler, a self-employed husband, work, housework, and the life or death of my own dreams. Maybe we all can get some free therapy out of it all.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Busy Life

I am tired, too tired to be depressed! Yeah! I worked a 12 and a 16 hour shift this weekend. I am trying to get used to my new schedule. I just can't yet figured it all out yet. The "me time" is basically gone. Maybe that is the fifteen minutes before I fall asleep watching Leno at night.

I think I have the Super Mom syndrome. I know that if I plan enough, get motivated enough I can work full time take time with my dd and be a great wife and homemaker. God, I am crazy. My dh has stepped up to help, that's good. He made a great dinner the other day and moved the lawn and fixed the swingset. He is exhausted, too.

I don't think his business will make it through to summer. So, it's good I took this job, so we have some money! I told him it would be fine for him to stay home for a while, but I don't think he is modern enough to deal with that yet. I would like it, actually. It would take some pressure off me. We will see what hapens.

My dd loves to fish! My dad and she love to fish together and it is sweet to see them together.

*An aquaintance I know is not the person I thought she was, and it is sad.*

I need to find a purpose (or two) for my life. Right now I am just trying to make it through the day and to the next paycheck. *Jaden*

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Mom politics

DD and I went to a playdate with moms and kids from her playschool that she will start this fall. It was fine. The weird thing is trying to navigate the working moms/ SAHMs. You know, the usual stuff. I actually ended up talking with one sahm about her husband's job! In my defense we are in the same field and I was interested in his advanced degree, etc. Later I wondered if the sahm was offended. oh, well. I am unsure of asking women where they work, or if they work (I know, there is lots of work at home.) I just don't want to offend anyone, but this is normal ice breaker conversation. There is just not that much to say about diapers and dishes, we all do that. Any ideas?

Hi to Annonymous! Thanks for the comment. We have a lot of the same feelings. I hope to here from you again.

I am already falling a little behind in the housecleaning/ errands department. My dh has been helping some on his new day off.

My garden is growing. The sunflowers are growing each day, maybe 8 inches tall now. The rabbits only got to one of them. now I cover them with pots at night. The green beens are growing, too. The strawberries are delicious.

I am tired all the time. I guess I have to get used to it.

I have 2 more days off.. Yeah!

Bye!! *Jaden
 
You scored as Anarchism. <'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'>

Anarchism

75%

Democrat

67%

Socialist

50%

Fascism

50%

Green

50%

Nazi

33%

Republican

25%

Communism

17%

What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.

“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”
“It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.”
--Jean-Paul Sartre

“It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.”
--Blaise Pascal

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Existentialism

90%

Utilitarianism

80%

Hedonism

80%

Strong Egoism

75%

Justice (Fairness)

50%

Kantianism

50%

Nihilism

45%

Divine Command

35%

Apathy

30%

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof). Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

agnosticism

96%

Satanism

71%

Paganism

67%

Christianity

58%

Islam

54%

Hinduism

54%

Buddhism

54%

atheism

50%

Judaism

38%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

Unipolar Depression

50%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

42%

Schizophrenia

42%

Eating Disorders

8%

Borderline Personality Disorder

8%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

0%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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